What a day

I've held off writing.  Trying to decide what is proper to share and what is too personal.  Sometimes we share too much and sometimes we bottle things up when we might help others if we share.  Who knows?  It's a catch 22.  Whatever that means.  haha 

Gabe has been to Dr. after Dr.  It's truly been a long road.  After yrs. of telling us he's sick and doesn't feel well I feel we've finally came to the place God wants us to be.  Not that it ends here but that we have reached the point that we just might have some answers.  But those answers still feel like an eternity. 

It's so troubling when you take your child to one Dr. and they think one thing and another Dr. thinks another thing.  And they are conflicting.  Or even another Dr. is drawing at straws and has not even the slightest clue but not willing to help you find "for sure" what the culprit might be.  It's just so mind boggling to me.

I know our issues seem so small compared to life threatening illnesses and even death itself.  And I would never undermine the hurt that is involved in those circumstances.  So please don't mistake my whining with self pity, that our world is unbearable or worse than others.  That is so far from the truth.  But this is our valley at this given time.  It has good days and bad days.  I am thankful daily for what God has blessed us with and without.

A few months back Gabe's therapist decided to refer him to a NeuroPsychologist.  (Very well paid and very educated persons)  Just in case you're asking "say who??". ha   We went and had an initial consultation a couple of months ago and finally this week, Wednesday and Thursday, we went for a total of 4 hrs. of testing.  I suppose you'd call it testing for learning curves, differences.  Basically they determine if your child might have one or more of: Autism, Aspergers, PPD, ADD, ADHD, Anxiety Disorders, etc...  This list goes on. 

Gabe seemed to be quite hyper and happy when I would return to get him both days.  Very interesting.  I've asked and asked about what he asked him and what they did.  Not much response but a few things.  One of the questions he told me the Dr. asked was: "why do people put stamps on envelopes?".  Gabe told me he didn't know the answer.  I was floored.  Anyway, another question was: "why does the government test meat before it is sold?".  He had no clue about that one either.  Of course he has now been informed in both areas. LOL  What threw me is what does that have to do with anything??  hahaha  I suppose that is why I am not getting paid to do what this Specialist does.  haha  I have thought and thought, "how on earth does that tell him anything?"  LOL  Oh well!

So long story short.  We have to wait 2 weeks to return for results.  I just want to hybernate and wait it out.  Not do anything until I get answers.  I keep telling myself we made it this far!  What is 2 weeks?  Well if you're me and have been watching your child suffer for all these yrs. IT'S A LIFETIME!!  I know God is in control, not me.  It's just been so hard.  I think my drive to P'cola that day will be the longest driver EVER.  rotfl  You that know me, can't you see me???  People will pull over and get out of my way because I'll look so crazy!  ha 

So all in all!  I feel like we are so close to finding that central piece of the puzzle that has had us so tripped up and searching.  But I am also so impatient.  Pray these next two weeks fly at the speed of light for us.  So we can begin the new chapter of our sons healing!  God Bless!!